Yesterday, I was reading an article about the first plus size model to get a huge contract and grace the cover of People magazine. She said something that really made me think. She was stating that in order to make a better future self you need to love and embrace the person you are today. This is so true. I don't know how many times I have stood in front of a mirror and said I wish I was skinner, I wish my hair was curly, I wish I was smarter and I could go on and on.
I have always been really hard on myself and I find it to easy to degrade and say negative things about myself but yesterday I finally realized I need to change.
I went to an award ceremony for my son and we took some pictures after ward and one of them is of Jaden and I being silly. When I first looked at it I said, "oh, how cute is this" and then immediately after I followed it up with "I just wish I wasn't so fat". As soon as it left my mouth I knew it was wrong and it did nothing to promote a positive self image. I then remembered what I read about the plus size model and her outlook on life. That picture is a true reflection of who I am as a person, beautiful, funny, sensitive and loving. I also see how awesome my son is and he is a reflection of me. By degrading myself I am in turn doing the same to him. My size does not reflect who I am as a person it's just physical.
Here is a quote I read somewhere that I have posted on a white board in my house. "A negative mind will not give you a positive life!
Today, I start a new chapter full of acceptance, and going for it. I don't want to sit on the sidelines any more and watch my life pass me by.
